But that’s another story for another day and a select audience, for the reasons of discretion and the lack of an enthusiasm to even lament about it.

I wonder what’s next to look forward to. Annual trips? Studying? or something exciting? Somehow I choose to believe that i’m experiencing the Singaporean boy male quarter-life crisis, where I’m fresh out of college, getting into the workforce and frankly unexcited by the road ahead.

Center for Career Advancement called today. NTU’s office, or so I heard from the lady on the line, asking me if I’m interested in applying for financial institutions’ Management Associates Programme. Fleetingly I wanted to say yes. Then after remember what is coming in the months ahead, coupled with the potential difficulty in applying for (the limited amount of) leave, and in the possibility that, -shudders-, my application was successful, the nightmare of having to tender and be labeled ‘irresponsible’ by leaving halfway through a project, sigh, I said no.

Maybe that’s the problem with me. I dare not dream. I dare not take action to try for things that could possibly excite me, or challenge me.

My best friend, on the other hand, went crazy and applied for cabin crew, and actually got the job. And now he is graduating, and will be happily jetsetting all over the world (actually only to a couple of dozens of destinations), repeating “chicken or fish, sir/mdm/boy/girl” over 100 times on each flight. That is the kind of life I thought I wanted when I was a kid, and my best friend’s doing me the favour by living it for me. Gee.

And I’m deskbound, albeit (thankfully) surrounded by an office of girls ladies (i really should update my vocab), and spend my nights doing dinner with the same bunch of friends, going for bahasa jepun kelas and come back to home every night after my mom slept.

I want to do something exciting. Like teaching English in Taiwan for a year. Or two. Or doing my masters in London, or even Portugal. Or take up a job in US for a couple of months.

I regret not doing work and travel in US for summer. Bahhh. Should have done that. >.<

Alright. Enough lamenting, because I have always been told that I should count my blessings. Now that I have a good job, a good pay, maybe it's time to just do my best for the next year or so, and decide where else I should head on after that.

Likewise, this space will see a hiatus, for which the duration remains unknown.

And until the day where the feeling finally fades, goodbye for now.

I miss all that.

and,

love you. =)

If you guys haven’t heard about this, please just do me a huge favour: click on the link above.

Then after that, go find a shoebox, go out to the nearest bookstore or toystore, whip out $20, and buy some nice stuffs. Stuff those nice stuff into your box. Bring the box down to the collection centers.

This will be your most charitable act of 2010, brightening a child’s day on 6th Feb when YOUR box reaches them. =)

Spread the word!

but i truly enjoyed myself tonight, even though the company was more than just you and me. =) i love you loads, my dear.

good night!